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Post by Anya™ on Feb 23, 2006 20:55:02 GMT -5
Raoul grinned lightly, looking at Reiko. His Reiko. His hands clenched into fists as he closed his eyes, his teeth gritting together. She probably doesn't have much time. I shouldn't have said what I did. I should probably give her a better... parting.. he said, hating the fact that she could die any moment. With a stifled sigh, he stood up, dragging the shirt over his head. The action exposed every secret he wanted to hide from her, to keep from her. Raoul didn't want Rei to know how horrible his childhood was, but she deserved to know. Slowly, he walked over to her, tossing the shirt aside as his hands grabbed her arms lightly and pulled her into a soft embrace. "Rei, this is my secret. This is my childhood- what my father did to me. I didn't want you to know because I know I'll be like him. Hell, I'm already like him. I kill people, not because I want to protect the people who live in this country, but because I need someone to take my anger out on," he confessed, eyes closed to keep her from seeing the dark malice hiding so close to the edge. All he needed was one small thing to piss him off and the thread was broken again. All it took was one small step and he'd go into a killing frenzy. Hopefully Reiko could help him from breaking that thread.
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Post by Anya™ on Mar 2, 2006 18:48:38 GMT -5
Raoul shook his head. "Rei.. I only felt something because I was a child then. I didn't start to fight against my father until after that. I knew if I had to survive, I had to make myself better than him. But even after all these years, working in the DEA, I never got that chance and it pisses me off. I wanted so badly to show him what exactly he did for a living, what he really was. He was a criminal, Rei. And I couldn't stop him," he said, his voice getting quieter, softer, and more distant. After a few minutes of silence, he spoke again. "Rei... you're more than I had ever dreamed of having. I never thought I'd have someone like you and actually feel like this with someone. All day I've been telling myself that I don't deserve you, and I still do. Out of everything I've done in my life, you seem like this little ray of white light smack dab in the middle of it. You somehow dug your way into my heart, Reiko, and I don't let that happen."
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Post by Anya™ on Mar 6, 2006 21:32:35 GMT -5
Raoul sat on the chair next to his desk, keeping his gaze away from her. Can we suffer another heartache? Sweets... I'm not sure I have a heart to go through that... Maybe enough to let you in, but not enough for it to be broken... he thought. He glanced at her, wanted to comfort her or something, but thought better of it. What exactly am I doing? An engagement ring.. She already had a lover and she's most likely crushed. I'm not helping any at all by throwing all this stuff around. "Maybe not," he said, standing and heading to his closet. He needed to get out and think things through, the complete opposite of what he was doing tonight. Usually he was like that, thinking before speaking and acting, but it was all thrown around because of Rei. "I need to go out for a little bit. Be careful, don't open the door for anyone, no matter who it is. I'm trusting you to be here when I get back." Slipping a black shirt on, he put his leather coat on over it and headed toward the door, running a hand through his hair briefly.
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Post by Anya™ on Mar 7, 2006 17:50:28 GMT -5
Raoul looked at her, listened to her words. He rested his hands on her shoulders, then tilted her chin up with his left hand. "Whatever you're thinking, Rei, don't. I'll be back tonight, I promise. Just... don't do anything stupid," he said, then continued down the hall. Never in his life would he even think about leaving someone he cared about. Never in his life had he broken a promise. And never would he start those bad habits.
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