Regret - An Alien Feeling

[Anya™]

(Current Song Playing: .hack//sign - Aura ; Its a good song and it gave me the muse for this post XP I kinda think it goes along with it)

Raoul grabbed Ruby's wrist before she could leave, his head tilted down slightly and his eyes closed. "I could care less about my damn wounds, Ruby. I'll live to see another day. What I want to know is where Rei went. She didn't just go out to get something to eat, did she?" he asked in a low voice, yet it wasn't threatening. "You know... As much as she wants to, she can't really hide or run away. Not here, when she's going to be trapped in by rooms and all these scientific bastards. I just want to help her and if she wants to leave me, fine... I'm not putting any chains on her. You didn't have to lie, either." Raoul let her go, moving toward the cupboards and looking through them until he found the bandages. Taking out a roll, he began to unwravel it and wrap it around the claw wounds on his stomach.

"Honey, I'll be right back to finish the story. I promised your father I'll help him with his work tonight." Raoul nodded his head, watching her walk out of his room with that bright smile he loved. He sat on the bed for a few minutes, wondering how the story would end. Would the hero find the princess? She wouldn't be dead by the time he found her would she? Hopefully not. If he was the hero, he'd go through anything to save the princess. Even if it meant giving his own life.

With a sigh, he fell back against the bed and stared at the ceiling, still thinking about the story. Yet time passed and it had been a long time since his mother had come back. Raoul curled up on his side, blinking away his doubts and worries. Yet soon, he couldn't take it. He slid off the side of his bed, feet lightly touching the ground as he walked across the floor and out into the hall. Slowly, he made his way down the hallway and to his father's room. The door was slightly ajar and he peeked through it, his hand resting on it lightly. He saw his mother on the ground, crying silently and staring up at his father. His eyes widened with worry and his hand clenched into a fist, causing the door to move slightly. When his father looked at the door, Raoul entered the room at the same time, his eyes on his mother.

He quickly began toward her side, but just as he passed his father to reach her, he was stopped. "Dad, why is Mom crying again? Did she get fired from her job again?" he asked, itching to go to his mother's side. But his father had a firm grip on his neck, eyes slanted at his mother. Raoul looked between the two with a sad look, but he didn't let the tears through. "Dad...?" Suddenly his father's grip tightened considerably, causing Raoul's eyes to widen and almost cry out in pain. But the child knew what would satisfy him and not, which was why he bottled the pain inside.

I'm not losing another loved one to something so stupid... he thought, finishing the bandaging and throwing the rest of it aside. He buttoned up his tattered silk shirt and headed for the door. "I'm going to find her. I can care less about myself, remember that, so don't try to stop me. Just go out with your man and have a good time," he said, passing her and heading down the hall.

[Anya™]

Raoul searched every room he could open, even broke a few to get inside. But there was no sign of Reiko. His heart began to race even faster in fear as he thought of Reiko dying, coughing up blood and in pain without him there to at least comfort her. How long is that cure going to be?! It should be close to being finished, dammit. They said their team was the best and there was always a possibility. They made fucking simulated shit and machines to take out diseases, but why didn't they take hers out?! he growled, silver orbs beginning to mix between red and black in rage. He turned the knob of the next door, noting it was locked, then turned harder. Instead of just breaking the lock, the whole knob turned, breaking the wood around it and causing the door to open. Again, she wasn't inside. "Rei, where the hell are you!?" he hissed, shifting to panther form and racing down the hall.

He started at the other end, in human form, breaking down every door. The bandage around his stomach had begun to take the color of red, noting that his wounds were reopened again from his determination for her. If he kept it up, he'd loose too much blood and could end up dying himself. Not until I find Rei.. first.. he thought, bursting through one of the last few doors. And there stood Reiko at a table. "Rei, what the hell were you thinking?! You can't go walking around like that. Do you know how worried I was, Rei? How worried that you could be coughing your damn lungs out, possibly dying before I could find you? Dammit, Rei, you're going to live longer than you intend to. I've made plans. We're going to get married. We're going to spend a lot of time together, alone. We're going to have kids, a few of them at least. Reiko, we're going to a have a life together.. Don't throw that away, please, not after you made me this way. I never smiled before you, never had anyone to love or protect. Don't take that away from me..." During the time that he had been talking, Raoul had made his way toward her. Genuine tears were starting to appear in his eyes, the red and black mix fading to silver. Don't just leave me..

[Anya™]

Raoul held her close, burying his face in her hair. She was dying, of course. He knew it would happen sooner or later... "Rei, you're not going to die. They're going to have it before it happens. They're working on one that will act quickly, getting rid of all that shit that's making you sick. Trust me, we're going to get out of here, alive and well, and spend countless nights together, sharing the same house, the same bed. You don't have to be afraid, you know.. I'm not going to run and find someone else because you think you're going to die," he said, speaking quietly as he stroked her hair. "I'll be with you every second. That is if you give me the chance and quit running away. I didn't think I'd fall in love that night, either, so quickly. I usually never felt...anything. But there was something about you. Just don't worry right now..."

I'm dying...I'm dying...I'm dying... You're not dying, Rei. You only think you are. You're drowning yourself in what you see as reality and sometimes you just need to get away for a little while. Just.. don't think about dying for once...

[Anya™]

Raoul took her hand and pulled her close to his side, beginning to walk down the hall his arm protectively around her waist. "Not hungry, really," he said, scratching the back of his head. He needed to get her off of the subject of death and her life on the line, so he began thinking quickly. Picking off of her honeymoon idea, he grinned down at her. "We'll go to more places than just the rainforest. Truthfully, I don't think you want me in there. I might just 'become one with the forest' if my panther half got loose there. That might just mean trouble for you." They will get the cure done in time. She won't be taken from me like my mother was... So suddenly..