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Post by kiwi on Mar 12, 2006 1:06:29 GMT -5
Shade jumped up at the sound of her voice and stumbled back falling off the bed as well, but he didn't hit his head. Quickly he stood up alertedly looking around the room, "What the...? What happened?" he asked confusedly. He walked around the bed only to see her on the floor. His head tilted to the side, "Uh you okay?" he asked curiously blinking again, "Why did you fall off of the bed?". Yup, he could be so clueless sometimes. He hadn't realized he had snuggled up against her, but if he did his face would be cherry red. Shade knelt down beside her and stared at her head wondering if she had severely damaged it. "Do you need some ice...?" he asked trying to help even though he didn't know it was his fault.[/size]
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Post by Anya™ on Mar 12, 2006 1:13:33 GMT -5
Maia shook her head, faintly smiling up at him. "No, I'm fine, really. Just had a... kinda weird dream, I guess you could call it," she said, standing up. She pulled her shirt down, which had moved up as she had been sleeping and straightened out her pants. "Sorry for waking you...." She moved around the room to the window, looking out of the window. Her hands gripped the windowsill, biting her lower lip as she thought. That shouldn't have happened... I don't know why I didn't push away immediately. I didn't realize it until his scent reached me, but why? I'm not usually this dumb... she thought hopelessly, almost desperately. I don't think I was ever ready to accept the world again..
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Post by kiwi on Mar 12, 2006 1:21:58 GMT -5
"Oh okay, well if you need anything let me know." he told her returning the smile even more happily, "And it's no problem at all, we can't help what we dream." He watched her for a moment then crawled back into bed again, laying in the middle and stretching out. His eyes closed yet again, but this time he wasn't sleepy at all. Shade was supicious, wondering if that was the real reason she had fallen. He had heard her talking to herself the day before, maybe she'd do it again? Maybe she'd mention it, you never know. He hoped he didn't talk in his sleep and he didn't. That was good, wouldn't it be embarrassing if you said something and you didn't even know it?
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Post by Anya™ on Mar 12, 2006 1:50:08 GMT -5
Maia glanced back at the bed at Shade, saw him lying down and sleeping again. She sighed and looked outside the window again, wondering what to do next. "You should have told him the truth. You know you could have so gotten him embarrassed if you had done that." Maia rolled her eyes in agitation and glared over at her younger brother. "What? Its only the truth, Maia. I mean, his reaction would have been completely priceless.
"Don't you have someone else to bother, Benny?" she hissed lowly, moving away from the window to the couch. She sat down on the leathery furniture, crossing her arms around herself and looking at the ground.
"Maia, it was probably a mistake. Don't get all wound up over it. Why don't you just try to talk to him about.. y'know..." he offered, sitting next to her on the couch. Maia shook her head, putting her face in her hands.
"I don't know, Benny. I don't know why I'm here. I don't... I don't know what's really going on.." Her hands moved from her face to her hair, messing it up slightly. "Benny, I'm afraid. You were the last person who was close to me and I wasn't even able to help you. I feel like Shade is getting closer to me because I had to say I'd give it a try to be his friend, and I vowed I wouldn't let anyone close to me since the day I lost you... I'm just.... afraid," she confessed, her voice beginning to break. Tears ran unchecked down her face and she covered her face to stifle her crying. Maia could feel the cold feeling of Benny's hand on her shoulder and she was grateful he was with her in some form.
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Post by kiwi on Mar 12, 2006 2:11:08 GMT -5
Shade listened to her conversation making sure to keep his eyes closed and act like he was asleep. It sounded like she was talking to someone, but who? There wasn't anyone else here that he knew of. He heard her say the part about being his friend. 'Give it a try to be his friend...'. Those words repeated through his mind. Did that mean she didn't really want to be his friend? That she was just...showing some kind of pity or something? Shade kept his sigh inside. Of course why wouldn't she think that? Everyone else had....maybe he had thought wrong about her...maybe she was just like them. It wiped the smile from his face as he thought, maybe she was right not to get close to him. He heard it, heard her vow that she didn't want to get close to anyone. It sounded like a good idea, perhaps he should vow that, too. What was the point in getting close to someone if you would just lose them in the end? You'd be attached to them and then one day....they'd just...be gone from your life forever. Why break a heart that is already broken? It would only end up killing you. 'This has to stop...what am I doing? She means nothing to me...shes not even my friend.' he thought clenching his fist underneath the pillow, 'I'm so...stupid. I should have known better...should have known to stay away, but I didn't...and it was a mistake.'.
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Post by Anya™ on Mar 12, 2006 2:29:43 GMT -5
"I can't do it, Benny. I'm just going to leave. I'm only hurting him in the process of trying to help," she said, standing. She snatched her shoes when she passed the bed, sitting in a chair at the table. After putting her shoes on, she stopped to think. No... she couldn't just leave. "I should... leave something behind..." Abruptly, a sheet of paper and a pen appeared in front of her. Maia took the pen and began writing, meaning every word.
Shade,
I apologize for my sudden disappearance, but I'm afraid I can't be a good enough friend for you. I've tried as hard as I could, but I can't seem to find the old me that I wanted to be. I'm not asking you to accept my apology, seeing as I probably brought you nothing but grief, especially after last night. All I can truly give you now are these words and the significance of these flowers I have left you. Farewell, yet I feel we'll meet again somewhere.
Maia
The flowers of her choice were already splayed across the table, each with a specific meaning. With a sigh, she stood, looking down at her letter. I feel like a fool... she thought, a single tear falling on the letter as she turned away and headed for the door.
[Yes... and now for Flower History XP
Aster-contentment Begonia-deep thoughts Pink Carnation-gratitude Geranium-comfort Larkspur-beautiful spirit Peony-healing Pink Rose-friendship Star of Bethlehem-hope Pink Tulip-caring White Carnation-remembrance (she won't forget him type remembrance) Forget-Me-Not-remember me forever]
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Post by kiwi on Mar 12, 2006 2:45:48 GMT -5
Shade continued to listen, he could already feel his broken heart being crushed again. 'It's for the best...' he thought clenching his teeth together trying to believe it, 'It's for...the best.'. Finally, a sigh escaped him. He thought he had found a friend, someone other then his sister that he could talk to and they'd understand. It hurt...hurt to know she didn't think she was a good friend when it was clear she was. Shade couldn't have asked for anyone better, but now she was gone, too. Now she was just a memory...only to fade away to the back of his mind until something reminded him of her and he thought of her again. It almost made him angry, made him want to blame it on something. He felt like ripping something apart or clawing at something until his claws broke. Shade was slowly fading away. He was no longer needed, his sister didn't need him...no one did. What was the point in living if you didn't have a purpose? I'll tell you the answer, there wasn't any point. The thought from before wandered to his mind. He finally realized that life wasn't luxurious no matter how you dreamed it. Oh he had a purpose, but it was a pointless purpose. His purpose was to provide Jarnn and the rest of them with their sick enjoyment. The only thing he was useful for now was a good fight. Maybe if they put him in The Cage it would end his misery once and for all. Then he could be with his parents again and he'd no longer had to worry about his heart, after all...it was only an organ. [/size]
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